I keep asking myself what am I doing? I once dated a guy that promised me heaven on earth he didn't have much and I didn't care. He quit smoking for me(or so I thought),he even cut his afro off for me .
Few months later he began to get angry and started locking his fone . I asked him what the problem was he started to complain about money and how his boss wasn't paying him as at when due, I use to encourage him to be patient and that soon things will turn out fine. I supported him with the little I had and I showered him with love. It was so obvious that he had gotten into me. He had his clothes at mine , toothbrush ,his sporting waves cream at mine and fone charger too. We took our bath together, we borrowed each other's clothes, he called regularly when he gets to work ,on his lunch break and days when he won't be staying over it was super real for me . We did everything together went to the cinema, market and sometimes when I'm running late he would come pick me up we were on a roll.
After a few months things were not the same, for instance,he would disappear from me for days without a word and when he came back he would ask for forgiveness and blame it on the fact that he didn't have money,it hurt but I had no option than to forgive him. Then he became greedy and started asking for stuff that I didn't have like money to buy clothes or fone he even went as far as suggesting I give him my own fone claiming his fone got stolen. Even sex which was an every other day affair became a once in month routine but did that reduce my love for him ? Nope! It took the grace of God and the help of one of my boys assisting me to realize he was deceiving me.
To be loved by some one is beautiful to care for some one is amazing(I'm glad I got the chance to experience it) I remember counting the time from 4.30pm till 6.pm for him to arrive back from work.6pm strikes and he would be walking thru my gate and I would jump on him and we would kiss for minutes then he would sit with me and tell me how his day went and I would do the same.
He use to beg me not to leave him that if I did he would kill the guy I leave him for.
We use to go for events together and people will stare and be wondering what she saw in him because it was like the beauty and the beast and we all know who the beast was... but I threw caution to the wind. I was in love but did I ever stop to ask or even reason if he loved me back as much as I did?
I loved him because he was calm n patient with me and always there to assist me with work.
Till date I kept wondering why he changed and I came to a conclusion that perhaps my love was too much for him. He was not fully educated but had a decent job . His English language both written and spoken was worse than Lagos road in raining season.
He wore fake gold chain that washed away faster then the beach washes off the sand, his teeth was thick with plague but I didn't notice all of these but even if I did I didn't care and I bought the best of toothpaste which got rid of the plague. I bought him regularly body spray and bath gel which got rid of his "eau de smoked fish slash engine fume parfum."
When you are in love you really never care about appearance or little dirty habits you just throw yourself in regardless.
I took making him over as a project for me and my, did I do a good job. He glowed like the sun and was always happy he confessed to me loads of times and every one complimented his new look I was working on getting him to stop wearing fake gold which he has to keep changing every 3days before he ghosted me.
Since he left, I felt an empty space inside of me and keep praying God fills it up and heals me .
I'm not your regular writer but when I'm super stressed I write my pain, or joy
Do I miss him? sure I do daily ! will i get over him? yes! will love again? sure when the time is RIGHT for now I'm just a walking zombie...
Once again the results are as follows
A=0, Village people = 100
