I MISS HIM

Just for the record... I miss you your hugs,kisses, finger fucking,dick searching I miss then all some times I miss your silly good sensible &some times senseless advice.  I miss you. Your ridiculous questions and wierdness I super miss oh not to forget our arguments and your pyscho business I super super miss.
I want you,my body needs you badly every night I feel you inside of me like super real I become wet (most time I have an orgasm) then I wake up to been wet ,super horny and you not even being there. Arrrghhhhhh!!!
I want you more then ever I miss and need you badly, I don't want anyone else here to touch or even come close to me. What a mess I have made of myself (what a FECKING MESS)
When I driving home and I come close to your office my heart skips a beat. When ever I see a type of your car I think of you (since every Tom, saddie and Allen drives and own the type of your car I guess u understand that it means I THINK ABOUT U A LOT )
YOU r annoying, nosy ,impatient, a good pretender, player, behavior shifter, always busy pretending to be busy,excuse giver, good fuck oh super GOOD FUCKER but most of all 2 timing BASTARD  (SCRATCH THAT 50 TIMING BASTARD )
STILL tho I miss you a whole lot most of all my body misses u a whole lot.
I don't care about you but I do worry that my body misses you. I wish I could put an end to this bad joke (yes it a joke ) but I can't because it hurts I can't keep hurting myself so just for the record ONCE again I MISS YOU A WHOLE LOT!!

THE AFFAIR

When he can't hold your hands in public (it's an affair ).
When he can't take your calls at weekend (it's an affair ).when he calls you at odd hours (like super early or damn too late ) definitely an affair. When he grabs you and kisses you for so long it's an affair.  How he makes love to you matters take note is he tender, aggressive or both you know tenderly aggressive (it's an affair ).
Does he proudly kiss you in the dark and can be super affectionate but only in the dark( it's an  affair) when he listens to you patiently and then disappears for a couple of days without letting you know (because he doesn't have to report to you, definitely an affair )
You know he lives around but do not  know where exactly (super scared you might show up  unannounced)
it's an affair.
I get weak,I get lonely, I get horny cause I want you ever so much but can't call you am DEFINATELY   IN AN AFFAIR .....

Thots of a cheater

I wouldnt say am in love, but am I a cheater? yes,am I wrong? definitely,can I stop? perhaps... then what is it that makes me keep going back? It's the danger I guess...
Thrill of it,excitement of it...
But some times I do feel the guilt. Like today,  when you mentioned her it was like an alarm in my head...
For fucksakes what am I doing?
I seriously need to put an end to this before it gets too far,
Perhaps am being too greedy , I promised myself just this once,but now I hate it when u leave....
I know am playing with fire... just like the  gingerbread man I might get burnt....
When it all comes crumbling what will happen to me???

STAY SEXUAL

When people most especially girls read my diary, they ask how can I get my partner to be in the mood?  Well When it comes to sex every one is a learner.. am I perfect NO! do I know all ?ABSOLUTELY NOT!
How ever, to get your partner to be sexual you need to (and am gonna write in caps ) FIND HIS OR HER WEAK SPOT.some like when u fondle their boobs ,while some massage their dicks or suck male breast, play with her clits  or slap their ass (yes it's A crazy world) which ever way it goes you just NEED TO FIND THE G SPOT!!
Location location matters,
My kid brother had his girl friend over and they started off kissing she grabbed  his ass tightly and the next thing you know he carried her and layed her on the dinner table,(yes true story)he lifted her dress and slipped her g string to the side in other for him to pave way for his dick to slide in....
According to him, it was painful..  why? (I know right )
This was because the table was too high yet smooth but too high so that in other for him to gain access to her vagina he had to stand on his toes (yea picture that )
So yes location matters tho "SEX ON THE TABLE IS A MOST " ensure you get the right table.  I recommend table below his dick...
Spontaneous !!
Yes once in while surprise him especially after an argument.. DEFINITELY A TURN ON!
I got super upset with my boyfriend  last nite  and had a horrible night, I found it hard to sleep . He rang me the next morning and tried explaining but I was too upset to listen.. (but hearing his voice alone I KNEW I missed him super ) so on my way to a meeting I did a drive by yes I called him and told him to step out in 4 mins and when he did there I was waiting in a tinted car (cheeky right ) he got in and we drove to a lonely road and we both grabbed each other and kissed like our lives depended on it...he held my right boob and sucked on my nipples and I  was so weak I just held on to his lower lip...  it was crazy but it needed to be done..... (besides I knew he loved it and wanted more)
So yes definitely a yes once in while be spontaneous...

I won't consider myself A SEX GODDESS but I do know this that understanding your partner /lover /boyfriend /husband /wife or  watever  sexually is important because if you do you will be able to know what  to touch ,where and when. Surely demanding sex when you know he is super tired after a stressful day is a no no no
but if you keep reading you might learn a few tricks of the trade on  HOW TO GET IT WHEN YOU WANT IT ..

Sexual 215

OK so I can't emphasis enough the need for proper location and perfect timing....
Let me explain, to get more out of your partner you need to have a good location and adequate timing...
For instance, last night my boyfriend came over to see me and there was total black out .he sat on my porch and waited for me to come out. I did wearing a simple Jersey skirt and tee shirt..
we hugged and kissed and spoke about our day... suddenly without any warning he lifted my skirt and removed my underpants ...
Location: my front porch
Position: him sitting while I was standing...
He requested I spread my legs apart while standing and he went on one knee  as if he was about to propose and then went underneath my skirt and began to lick my vagina... it was a crazy sensation I could see stars my legs were vibrating my butts popped up sliently twerking with out any motivation from nicki minaj's tracks...
I pushed my fingers thru his thick black hair ....
I wanted more but I could sense because of my height & the position he was in it wasn't comfortable enough for him.(he couldn't stay in that position long enough plus he couldn't get to eat all part of my pussy )
SO  it is safe to say PERFECT TIMING  for a quickkie but POOR LOCATION.....
because my boyfriend is such a great lover he grabbed me into the house threw me on a couch... placed my legs on each side of his shoulder and placed his lips on my pussy and proceeded to lick,nibble and suck my pussy.. damn just thinking about it turns me the fuck on...
Once your partner has tasted a bit of you there is no going back...so attention ladies ensure you are able to seize the moment... for me I knew the black out was an advantage for me so I wore a skirt ,I knew my boyfriend loves touching my waist and bum.

MR CUTENESS

In too deep, it's killing, maddest night yet....(PLEASE  DON'T JUDGE ME.... )
I mean I know it's super wrong but Lord so right... no string attached... am super speechless like wow best experience yet......  (slow down gal )

So I went for a meeting and stopped to buy gas for some reason I step out of the car to get a drink when this really cute dude said to me "nice legs "  "thanks" I responded back and pulled out my card to pay when he said "I got this " we both smiled... I walked back into my car and drove off.. getting to my meeting I had diffculty parking when I noticed a FORD FOCUS flashing it's head light directly at me I turn off the engine picked my bag and began to walk away when he said  to me "hey stranger,  where u off too ?"I smiled cause it was the cute guy from the gas station...  chit chat chit chat and 2hours later we met at a bar with a lovely view of the  sea and over drinks he said to me.. "let me be your PANTY WETTER "    "wat?" I asked looking confused... he said "no one can get you as wet as I would... "
(Now you know your Gal is super adventurous )
Checking my time it was 6.30pm and damn was he good looking....
We took a walk to where we parked our cars and in between his and a parked g-wagon he knelt down, I opened up my legs as wide as I could and right there he licked from my right knee to my vagina then did the same for my left then began to lick my vagina still with my under pants on next he pulled my under pant to the side and deeped his tongue in to my pussy slowly.. he tooK his time like a gynacologist on duty
he licked every layer of my vagina slowly and then went back to digging deeper inside of me with his tongue all the way in.
He made me wetter than a fountain, I screamed "stop please am in a relationship "  he ignored and continued like a professional my under pants was super soaked from my pussy juice plus his saliva. I held firmly to the edge of his car door. My nipples were Super hard ...he then asked me to turn around so that my butts was in his face still with my legs spread wide he  began to lick my butts, my butt crack and then my butt hole.. sucked it like he was sipping from a straw. All the while his fingers never took a part in this sexual activity.. just his mouth... I began to scream FUCK ME FUCK ME PLEASE... he smiled and continued licking and sucking me harder.. making me cum not just cum but squirt like  Crazy he licked  continunously and said to me "squirt for me girl I love your pussy"
I went crazy I beg for him to take me right there...
But he kept sucking me... i couldn't stand up any longer cause my legs were failing me so i leaned on the g-wagon still moaning softly when the security came over and said "WHAT IS GOING ON HERE? "  "nothing am just helping her fix her buckle" Mr cuteness replied..
The security flashed his touch on my feet and saw sir cuteness on one knee hands on my left shoe.. then he got up held my waist (cause I could barely walk) and helped me to my car........

MY SEX-CENTERED ZONE

When people read my blog/sexual diary they call me a sex addict..I 'm not really a sex addict infact I hate having sex.. I rather have oral sex or foreplay but not da real deal (weird right? )....
But when I do have sex it's always very intensed... .I mean just last night(Date night ) I was trying to explain to my boyfriend how I feel when his penis is inside of me... but I failed .....
But today, I finally  have the right words
With you....
I get super excited in my head,
When you grab my boobs and squeeze them like you are rehearsing for an orange juice contest my butts pop up! making my clits &vagina super moist from  constantly racing.
my legs damn! my amazing legs just spreads open involuntarily(like a faulty electric gate ) and I start to get  wet....when I grab your penis to insert in me (just the tip touching my clits ) I go into a trance.
While driving back from date night,   I loved the way he kept finger fucking me, I love the fact that my wetness gets his penis hard.
I kept licking &sucking his penis I loved the taste I want more (with him I always want more )
I love the fact that my body yearns for him every time we are together.
Currently, I only want to be fucked by him yes fucked hard then flipped over and ridden hard. I want his mouth on my boobs to suck and chew on my nipples, lick my neck &my belly button ,lick and kiss my vagina and suck every layer of my clitoris..
I want him on the  table, chair, bonnet /hood of his CAR..... I want his penis as deep as it can get inside so hard that I scream from pain. I want his hands on my hips gripping me tightly.yes I want him to fuck me so hard till my vagina clenches &I cum all over making my legs vibrate from pleasure..
When we both reach climax , I want him to cuddle, hugand spoon me just to make me feel safe, warm and appreciated...
I hate to confess but I strongly believe that my body wants him more than I do....
Does he exist? YES HE DOES!!
Am I in love? NO HELL NO!!
DO I like him?  I SURE DO!
Does he confuse me? YES HE DOES!!
but I know I love the thrill &danger, I live for the excitement but like a speeding train I pray I don't crash &burn.
I have no idea what I want but I do know I SUPER WANT HIM....

50 shades but not so grey

As we watched anna and Christian fuck themselves stupidly. The cinema was totally calm perhaps it was because of the intensity of the sex scenes not so sure .
But far end right corner of the  cinema we were seated when  suddenly he whispered "take off ur underpants " and  like in a trance she obeyed. slowly she turned to her side and  pulled her 100%lacey red/black colored g-string(victoria secret) to her knees he moved her hands away and agressively  ripped her underpants off her and slipped her underpants into his breast pocket . She sat still pantless with her heart racing, nipples as hard as rock You could smell her pussy was super excited from a mile away. He knew she wanted him but like the control freak  he was not going to let her off that easy. Next he put his hand in between her thighs and worked his way into her clitoris with his bare fingers he tickled her super fast making her quaver between her knees. The pleasure was super intensed drowning the voices of Anna and Christian as well as making the ongoing sex scene blurr. The more she moaned, the faster he went tickling the hell out of her clitoris. She leaned over as if to whisper into his ear but instead started to nibble sexually , "ahhhhh"he moaned as if to repay for such sexual act he dipped his finger in to her vagina and began to finger fuck her . so hard  and intense it was that she started to grind her teeth cause the pain was definately her pleasure. Within minutes just like the river nile her pussy opened up and thick creamy  juice began to flow. Unrelentless he continued like a greedy baby he kept dipping his finger harder into her wet now turned slippery pussy. Regardless of the location and crowd he kept making her come over and over again. "I WANT YOU" she moaned ……

Recipe for good loving

As he sprinkled grated white chocolate on  her  vagina & spread whip cream on  her juicy firm breasts & belly button he  took time in licking & sucking all off ,u could hear  her  moan from miles away.   nipples as hard as a rock, pussy super moist.  Finally, he dove  in rocking her slowing , she begged him  "FUCK ME FASTER" but back n forth he continued slowly . suddenLy like a fully charged  vibrator  He placed a firm grip on her hip bones & faster faster & faster back &forth non stop he rode. He flipped  her body & went in  from behind "arrrrgh YESSSSS please !! dont stop baby!! dont stop!!"  She begged at that moment the flood gate of her pussy openned up &just like spilled milk  it all came rushing out . He smiled & continued riding her refusing to stop he said to her  "HANG    IN THERE BABE, AM  JUST GETTING  STARTED". (Definately aint a one minute man)

Freaky part1

Like ant on ice cream am hooked! I waited for hours &days. Just fone calls &sms but no physical contact. Twice i blocked and un blocked his number.
Finally he shows up looking fagged out and  un sexy yet i long for him to grab my lips  into his.. trust ur girl i had no intention of letting him have his way without a bit of black girl drama.
I raved ,rant,cursed&paused screeched &screamed. But urs truly sir psycho remained totally calm. Pulled me towards him and hugged me super tight my breast popped up and nipples all hard blood pumping super fast.
We  started kissing and my brain went numb. I love kissing sir psycho  because i know he is bad 4me &dangerous. My legs part ways &while his finger went in deep(remember what they say about a guy's finger size is the same with his dick so true so true)
I was as slippery as oxford street in winter. i wanted him  as a two day old baby wants food. He knew this and kept teasing me. We stopped and he decided to walk me to my door
We kissed again and again then his right  hand worked its way to my clit still kissing me he wispered "spread em". I did exactly so and he finger fucked me ensuring he rubbed my clits super fast .
Everything was so intensed &just then  the security lights came on damn the lights damn DA FUCKING LIGHTS!!!!

Super upset today!

I woke up empty which by now you know is a normal mood yours truly .
Moving on its amazing how one minute you are all close and personal next he is ignoring you &all.
Sometimes its not what you planned or how life was planned that it ends up being. For instance , i planned to work with the Eco canada but nothing till date. I planned to be married to a fellow canadian but yet am not even dating one instead am dating a southafrican mixed dude.
Meanwhile my cousin is thru with school & is currently a nurse  working in a big hospital. But me but me dear universe have you forgotten me have u? Have u? Like am here look at me give me sometin pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee.
Am kind of running out of time oh!!
I gave up sex &loads of stuff yet nothing where is my blessing father JEhovah where is my job and family my own kids ,husband and all. Fancy ride kick ass house with the view of the ocean ?
Please dear heavenly father i dont mean to complain but free me bless me with a job and husband please

My needs

Status: SINGLE with no one to mingle .
Work: jobless
Age: super old
Personal statement:
Hi! Am very very cool,super sexy,loving,caring,devoted,hardworking,teamplayer,funtobewith, hyperactive,creative but most espeacially am just me��
Requirement:
Desperately seek a job as a consultant tv host or environmental officer.
Needs to be in relationship serious one.

When love happens

Why love hurts so much remains a mystery. Today I saw him again he comfortably said Hi. Am like what da. Fuck man! Like u barely call me now u see  me getting my tires fixed and he drives by. Like what I really want to know is why is love hurting and so hard to get. Every where I go I meet people who end up hurting me like arrrghh am sick of this all.
Dear universe surely u have taken a enough from me please can u now start blessing me cause I seriously can't deal anylonger.
I feel so sick to my stomach and super super in tears. God please I know u listen to my prayer s please help me get true love real real love and a super cool job please oh please!

Rock steady

What have i done? I super fucked up like, am not meant to have done this oh damn....
So hear me out..
He called and came over to see me and as usual to cancel on our date. Well i came out we sat down kissing and holding hands. Am like a bit mad cause he was about to cancel on our dat but he said he was super tired. Like am confused.
Moving on .. i told him to buy me dinner we went out for dominos and then came back and we started kissing again. We stripped but couldnt go any further because its that time of the month. Next thing he touched my body in a way that made me want him more. Then it happend he kissed me aggressively but tenderly then still on red he unzipped and went in..... hard and fast,aggressive but yet gently he pumped steadly as if his life depended on it.it was sheer cracra.
My boobs,bum he wanted it he got it now i feel nothing i cant actually remember his in to hers. So confusing i dont understand y i did wat i did but i actually did
hahaha stupid me��