Super upset today!

I woke up empty which by now you know is a normal mood yours truly .
Moving on its amazing how one minute you are all close and personal next he is ignoring you &all.
Sometimes its not what you planned or how life was planned that it ends up being. For instance , i planned to work with the Eco canada but nothing till date. I planned to be married to a fellow canadian but yet am not even dating one instead am dating a southafrican mixed dude.
Meanwhile my cousin is thru with school & is currently a nurse  working in a big hospital. But me but me dear universe have you forgotten me have u? Have u? Like am here look at me give me sometin pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee.
Am kind of running out of time oh!!
I gave up sex &loads of stuff yet nothing where is my blessing father JEhovah where is my job and family my own kids ,husband and all. Fancy ride kick ass house with the view of the ocean ?
Please dear heavenly father i dont mean to complain but free me bless me with a job and husband please