WORD OF THE DAY=Openminded.

Tonight went out for drinks with my friend and met his other friends it was quite enhanting.
We all have one thing in common, WE ALL WANT BETTER PAY.
One of the girl's Annabel gave me a tip and is been open minded. To want something from life one needs to be open minded. Because usually  what we want or think we need might not be suitable enough for us.  We need to aim higher and be open to new ideas for example;  I usually apply for personal assistant jobs and customer service jobs but I usually see administrative roles and management roles too but never apply for them.  But looking at what the job entails are often similar or related to personal assistant and customer service jobs so why can't  I be open minded and apply for them instead of limiting my self to just one role.
At the end of the day it all boils down to how fast or easy I can learn on the job.  So am taking the bull by the horn and applying for more roles that I am sure I can carry out the responsibility.
Thus I have decided to be open-minded when applying for jobs and also I have decided to once in a while hang out so I can meet people of which we could all encourage one another. Meanwhile I drove home late today 10.pm not bad at all .I use to be scared of driving late nights but am being open -minded and will be going out more (when I get paid tho)
It's not easy to get to the top but by God am gonna get there simple!

JOGGING FROM DEPRESSION

I wake up as early as 5am sometimes before 5 to get ready for jogging at 6. Or 6.15am. I do this because it keeps me from worrying over my failures yes hate to say it but I have failed my self. I use to dream big and wish to have a fabulous job married and all but dear blog it was just  a fantasy.
Am super single,broke and working for a company that hasn't paid me for ages.
My birthday is in less than three days and what I really want is a job or business that will fetch me money and a relationship that would lead to marriage  .am not 20 or 16 for Christ sakes am in my 30's I need to have my life together.
So I jog when am jogging I don't think of my problems, I feel free but once I have reached the finish line my burden comes rising. I feel the weight on my shoulders.
Since they have stopped paying me at work I have decided to go just twice a week, volunteer once a week, Christian service activity once a week at least by doing all these activities it will keep me busy so that I don't get depressed.
I wonder why God doesn't want to bless me now?  I have faith that he can, cause he created me but at least Jehovah should please wipe away my sorrows.
I have decided to write when ever I get  low as a depressed person I cry a lot so when ever I feel the signs coming I will just write my feelings down.
Dear universe please grant me my heart desire turn my state of poverty in to wealth please.  Elevate me from this suffering it is too much for me please.

SONG OF SADNESS

Am so lonely and feel un- accomplished.  I can't believe I have almost all the degrees in education and yet can't get a good paying job or afford to start up a bizness. All the men chasing me are married super married and if not married in a seriously relationship and only want to fuck me,even the honest single ones I don't like. I use to think I was created for a purpose but now am not so sure. I hate my life I wish I can just go and die right now and all the pain will go away.
It Hurts me that am trying to be faithful yet God doesn't want to bless me now I know they say miracles happen but why can't  my miracle happen now.
I want I want a Better life now not next five years but now how long do I have to wait and keep waiting.
My peers are doing fabulously well but me I can't even hold a day well it is so Unfair.
Change my story God , this is not what you planned for me grant me my wishes this not how it is suppose to be.  Make me better I know u can do it don't wait till am old do it for me now today or take my  soul because I have nothing left to live for...  ..