Flying emotions

So once again the said boyfriend stood me up. I was so angry  but  tried  to control my anger.
I've  only  seen him once, since I came back.  I don't  know  how or what to feel  I just  know  I feel very  empty.
I feel  like  he's  avoiding me.  But what  can I do but  wait  and see. 
I feel  relationship should not be forced. 
so am gonna  let it be. The way it  is and focus on me and not let my hart  be broken  any further.  Am so freaking sick off this. Arrghhh